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Mystery Solved, Eileen Chu

Growing up in a Christian family, I was raised with its morals and beliefs. I grew up being the good “girl next door” or was referred to as “the Christian.” That was until I entered into college and my life took a drastic turn. My living was no longer of a good Christian girl, but that of a heathen. My life in college had no indication of what I grew up with, which was a life of learning a living with the presence of the Lord. I lived a Godless life, walking around as a contradiction in my humanity. My conscience was tainted by Satan and he was winning by clouding my judgments. I wasn't even sure what was right and what was wrong.

Sometime in my junior year I took a good look at the world. It was at a Halloween frat party after a Men's volleyball game that I realized there's got to be more to life than this. The drunk people everywhere, loud music, flashy lights and superficial talk made me feel so empty. Not too long after, a verse came to my head (or at least a part of a verse), “Vanity of vanities” (Ecclesiastes 1:2) That night I made a vow to the Lord that I would start pursuing the Lord in a real and concrete way. With that vow, I told the Lord that when I would graduate from college, I would give two years of my life to the Lord by going to a two year Bible, truth, life, and service school. Otherwise known as FTTA, the Full Time Training in Anaheim.

After graduating college in 1999, I started the FTTA the following year, after working to fulfill a contract. Here I am today about to graduate with less than seven weeks to go. The classes I've taken with their rich truths and the experiences that I've gained in the Training are paramount. I can't begin to describe how much I've seen and experienced of the Lord with the help of books and classes related to Watchman Nee and Witness Lee. It's because of the mercy of God and the ministry that the mystery of my human existence is solved. I can also know God's will. I can live a life with a higher purpose knowing His will.

One aspect of God's will that I've enjoyed is “being filled in spirit,” (Ephesians 5:17). From the book The Experience and Growth in Life by Witness Lee, I have been learning to live a normal Christian life with a view that the Lord is in my spirit (1 Cor. 15:45). There is another person living in me (Gal. 2:20). In any situation I can turn to this living person in my spirit. In good things and bad things I can gain the Lord in my spirit (John 4:24). He is my joy and satisfaction. I'm really learning just to fall in love with this wonderful One, which is His will too. My life has meaning and a goal because of His will for me to enjoy Him and live my life with Him as my love. I found rest for my wondering soul and a home in Him.

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